1. This is one of the hardest things I will post; RIP Grandma Vicki. Here we go,I’m sorry I held the biggest grudge against you and stopped talking to you for about three years. I’m sorry for being a brat and holding anger instead of love. I’m sorry for not answering your calls on my birthday. I never got to say sorry or say I forgave you, and I feel so lost right now. I remember on Christmas when you would buy us things even though you had nothing, you would always call me and ask me about whom I was dating. I remember when I went through a very rough time you were there for me, calling me everyday. You always told me how beautiful I was. And to never forget how much I loved you. You would always song to me and say “great green globs of greasy grimy gofer meat, mutalated monkey meat, little birdies dirty feet and I forgot my spoon!” I remember going over all the time and eating McDonald’s for breakfast, lunch and diner, I remember you told me not to go in the ball pit bc little kids peed in it. Like Tina, I watched the titanic all the time and the first time with you. You used to give me candy and we would visit great grandma Blanche. You took me to the park and I got to play with your kitties. Watching Jaws was our thing and it always will be. You told me to call you “Vicki” instead of grandma, guess you didn’t want to feel old. As time went on I barely got to see you, in fact I avoided the idea of seeing you because it seemed easier to hold a grudge then to talk to you about how I felt. I wish I could take it back now and I’m so sorry I can’t. You lacked in a lot of things but what you had in your heart was more valuable than any rich mans home, you had love. And my God, you loved so much. I’m so sorry and I love you so much. I miss you already, I can’t believe you didn’t realize how loved you were. I’m sorry, so so sorry. I’m sorry I stopped talking to you, I’m so sorry I’m so stupid and elf that stupid grudge. I kept telling myself to call you and apologize, and now it’s too late. I love you. I miss you. We miss you, Vicki. #rip #grandma

  2. You are the answer to every prayer I’ve offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don’t know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have. #love #thenotebook #fall

  3. Happy birthday pop! Love you! #birthday #poppy #love #cake #hospital

  4. Speechless, absolutely speechless, Pop. When you first got the cancer I was scared, we were all pretty young and I was thinking to myself, “why you?, you’re a good guy, you love The Lord and you’re strong so why you?” It was definitely a long journey but you made it. Fast forward to last summer, my 19th birthday, my graduation party, you were sitting in the hospital with double pneumonia like you are now. I remember you sitting there telling me, “Becky I’m not going to make it, my time is coming”. I was scared, you looked terrible, but yet we made it out. God has been so good to us with you. I remember when we walked for you twice for relay for life, watching you let go of those balloons realizing that you have been healed. Summer was amazing, we ate, laughed and shared memories. But that all came down almost three weeks ago. You began to get sick again, your T-cells dropping terribly. I know it sounds selfish but I just can’t bare to see you this way. You’re in the hospital worse than ever with double pneumonia and your body is failing. And ive never been more scared that you may not make it. I’m sorry you have to spend you birthday in the hospital, I’m sorry you’re suffering, and I wish we could take some of your pain. I know God can move mountains and it’s in our weakness He make us strong. I know that whatever happens, He will take care of you, but it’s just so hard. I don’t know what else to do. I love you so much Poppy. Thank you for being in my life, for letting me come over and live with you. For watching Pawn Stars with me and watching scary movies and eating ice cream. For buying me unnecessary things just for the thought to make me smile. For taking us to Nelly Bly, for dressing up as Santa for us. For rubbing my back, for taking walks with me, for taking us to Brooklyn and the beach and for alway giving the best advice. For being a Godly figure in my life and teaching me to fight. I love you more than words can say and I don’t want to lose you. Keep fighting poppy and happy birthday. I love you, I love you. I love you. Fight the good fight and finish the race. πŸ˜˜πŸ’• #poppy #happybirthday #iloveyou #keepfighting

  5. Hehe what does the fox say?

  6. Throwback Thursday to when I was a sceneey weenie πŸ˜œπŸ˜‚πŸ˜±

  7. freshavenue:

    #Shrimp #Nachos 🍀

  8. I think the best kind of being happy is being content with who you are✨ #workingout #squats #love #who #you #are #princess

  9. Happy birthday to my pain in the butt! I love you more than words can say. You’re a fighter and you’re beautiful. You’re also crazy so if the purge happens, I’m hiding from you. Thank you for your love and protectiveness and for always making me laugh. For reminding me everyday how important it was to stick around and finish my story. Thank you for letting me be apart of your world, because God it’s beautiful. I love you to the moon but not back, because once you’re with the person you love why would you come back? You wouldn’t. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAY! @kaylajtoth #birthday #bae #babe #crazy #icantthinkstraight

  10. Some people say the saddest feeling in the world is being lonely or ignored. But I think the saddest thing in the world is to love something or someone so much, that no matter how much you want to hold into it or them, you know you have to let them go. You know they have to go and you have to watch them leave. And while they leave, they take a piece of you with them. Then you are left with a hole and that hole is not filled until they come back. And sometimes, they never come back. -Me.

  11. What are you wearing on your feet right now? Take a picture

    I’m naked I’m

  12. Mommy and Bella πŸ’• #mommy #bella #dog #sunshine #love

  13. I don’t wanna leave this bed~ #maroon5 #selfie #flannel

  14. And I’m free, free fallinπŸ’• #selfie #flannel #dyedhair

  15. Hai dere πŸ’•πŸ’ #bae #bestfriends #loveya #mswalk (at Thompson Park)